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| well as your nerves and your mind, become numb, even to the extent that you lose consciousness | 41 IMAGES: THE DAMAGE THEY DO |
| love in such a comfortable way? If you numb your faculty of feeling, how can you truly | 89 EMOTIONAL GROWTH AND ITS FUNCTION |
| knowledge that it exists have inevitably made themselves numb in some way and consequently suffer from guilt | 134 THE CONCEPT OF EVIL |
| problem. Nor is it necessary any longer to numb oneself, to cope with helpless exposure to pain | 134 THE CONCEPT OF EVIL |
| this lecture, when you withdraw love, you become numb. Although this numbness during childhood was a protective | 134 THE CONCEPT OF EVIL |
| indifference, cruelty and rage, I make myself as numb as they must be. The guilt expresses clearly | 134 THE CONCEPT OF EVIL |
| all spontaneity and make you withdraw from and numb all feelings. My dearest friends, this is a | 135 MOBILITY IN RELAXATION-SUFFERING THROUGH ATTACHMENT OF LIFE FORCE TO NEGATIVE SITUATIONS |
| it, how they cover it up, harden or numb it in one fashion or another. All these | 139 DEADENING OF THE LIVE CENTER THROUGH MISINTERPRETATION OF REALITY |
| separating it from your ego and trying to numb it by cruelty. On the other hand, cruelty | 139 DEADENING OF THE LIVE CENTER THROUGH MISINTERPRETATION OF REALITY |
| the well-known trap, in which you are paralyzed, numb and lifeless. So, first, all your aims, desires | 141 RETURN TO THE ORIGINAL LEVEL OF PERFECTION |
| full natural flow of feelings, where they deliberately numb them. It is usually easier to become aware | 147 THE NATURE OF LIFE AND HUMAN NATURE |
| it to be against you, you proceed to numb your feelings. As I have said before, you | 147 THE NATURE OF LIFE AND HUMAN NATURE |
| are. Being aware of the deliberate intent to numb feelings, and of the poverty-range of the feelings | 147 THE NATURE OF LIFE AND HUMAN NATURE |
| watching themselves so that these forces cannot manifest, numb themselves. They become dead. The prevalent manifestation in | 155 FEAR OF SELF -- GIVING AND RECEIVING |
| the level on which you are tortured, anxious, numb, hopeless, and twisted in pain -- another reality | 160 CONCILIATION OF THE INNER SPLIT |
| The predominant emotions that you shrink from and numb yourself against are pain and fear, as well | 167 FROZEN LIFE CENTER BECOMES ALIVE |
| bound to discover where, how, and why you numb yourself against some kind of pain: it is | 167 FROZEN LIFE CENTER BECOMES ALIVE |
| reject it. You then fear the fear and numb your fear, as well as the fear of | 167 FROZEN LIFE CENTER BECOMES ALIVE |
| to experience pleasure is very limited; they are numb, lifeless, and trapped in apathy. They are distrustful | 170 FEAR OF BLISS VERSUS LONGING FOR IT -- THE ENERGY CENTERS |
| resentment and self-pity create tightness and brittleness. They numb you to all live experience, to the truth | 187 (THE WAY TO HANDLE) ALTERNATION OF EXPANSIVE AND CONTRACTING STATES |
| deny what is, how you prefer to be numb. As you state it, you awaken this part | 187 (THE WAY TO HANDLE) ALTERNATION OF EXPANSIVE AND CONTRACTING STATES |
| or only a very limited amount. They are numb and paralyzed on that level, while the people | 203 INTERPENETRATION OF THE DIVINE LIGHT SPARK INTO THE OUTER REGIONS - MIND EXERCISES |
| awareness of their anxiety, but they feel dead, numb, listless, and paralyzed. This may be a sign | 204 WHAT IS THE PATH? |
| your defense against pain and unpleasantness. You become numb and cannot live fully. You cannot fuse and | 207 THE SPIRITUAL SYMBOLISM AND SIGNIFICANCE OF SEXUALITY |
| further release and prefer to be in a numb state rather than a destructive one. At this | 214 PSYCHIC NUCLEAR POINTS |
| and explosion. You therefore prefer to keep yourself numb and deadened. I am not talking about whether | 214 PSYCHIC NUCLEAR POINTS |
| work with. Most of you who do not numb yourselves are indeed aware of this very concentrated | 225 EVOLUTIONARY STAGES OF INDIVIDUAL AND GROUP CONSCIOUSNESS |
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| fear, anger, from arising. These emotions cannot be numbed. They can only be hidden. This, then, increases | 134 THE CONCEPT OF EVIL |
| will cannot reach those areas where I have numbed my perception, experience, feeling, and sensitivity. Therefore, I | 134 THE CONCEPT OF EVIL |
| or how obstructed it is. When you have numbed your feelings, the inner self is inactivated. It | 134 THE CONCEPT OF EVIL |
| unbearable that the feelings connected with it are numbed altogether. When human beings find themselves on such | 148 POSITIVITY AND NEGATIVITY: ONE ENERGY CURRENT |
| a more and superficially conscious level, you are numbed and feel little or nothing. It is not | 148 POSITIVITY AND NEGATIVITY: ONE ENERGY CURRENT |
| current. The current then becomes either negative or numbed. This means that you are either passive, paralyzed | 148 POSITIVITY AND NEGATIVITY: ONE ENERGY CURRENT |
| hindering the natural flow of feelings, for having numbed them. The vibrancy of real feelings makes overintensity | 151 INTENSITY: AN OBSTACLE TO SELF-REALIZATION |
| means that my mental faculties which had been numbed to some extent are active again. My learning | 169 THE MASCULINE AND FEMININE PRINCIPLES IN THE CREATIVE PROCESS |
| pain and are not aware why you feel numbed and deadened, you create a magnetic energy block | 191 INNER AND OUTER EXPERIENCE |
| When you find part of yourself deadened and numbed and you are frightened of reviving it, this | 214 PSYCHIC NUCLEAR POINTS |
| that you are very reluctant to energize the numbed matter in you. The reason for this reluctance | 214 PSYCHIC NUCLEAR POINTS |
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| that you could not count them with the numbers you have available in your world. Once I | 20 GOD: THE CREATION |
| there such a thing as numerology, that certain numbers are favorable, and others not? ANSWER: I strongly | 103 HARM OF TOO MUCH LOVE GIVING -- CONSTRUCTIVE AND DESTRUCTIVE WILL FORCES |
| center is being created. Although in terms of numbers this group may be exceedingly small in comparison | 209 THE ROSCOE LECTURE: INSPIRATION FOR THE PATHWORK CENTER |
| handle objects, you speak; you learn reading, writing, numbers, certain basic laws of outer life, of physical | 220 REAWAKENING FROM PRE-INCARNATORY ANESTHESIA |
| notice it. The evidence is in the growing numbers of new Pathwork members; in the nature of | 223 THE ERA OF THE NEW AGE AND NEW CONSCIOUSNESS |
| spirits coming into this plane in ever greater numbers, so is an increasing number of undeveloped souls | 255 THE BIRTHING PROCESS -- COSMIC PULSE |
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| for the inner lack of awareness, the deliberate numbing of feelings, just as the superimposed faith and | 110 HOPE AND FAITH AND OTHER KEY CONCEPTS DISCUSSED IN ANSWERS TO QUESTIONS |
| exposed to pain and deprivation often find that numbing their feelings is their only protection against suffering | 134 THE CONCEPT OF EVIL |
| quicker counterreactions. Passive indifference, however, born out of numbing the feelings, can go unnoticed because it can | 134 THE CONCEPT OF EVIL |
| may experience requires some means, such as the numbing process, of weakening its impact. The helplessness continues | 134 THE CONCEPT OF EVIL |
| feelings to protect myself. In spite of the numbing effect on certain emotions, I cannot desensitize my | 134 THE CONCEPT OF EVIL |
| center are various: separating and withdrawing, toughening yourself, numbing your feelings, denying your real feelings and substituting | 139 DEADENING OF THE LIVE CENTER THROUGH MISINTERPRETATION OF REALITY |
| proceeded very well on your path. The deliberate numbing occurs because you believe life is your enemy | 147 THE NATURE OF LIFE AND HUMAN NATURE |
| this and you are compelled to go on numbing your real feelings. You are just as much | 147 THE NATURE OF LIFE AND HUMAN NATURE |
| cunning ego, can ever be a waste. Only numbing the real feelings and creating false feelings, no | 147 THE NATURE OF LIFE AND HUMAN NATURE |
| of pleasure. This in turn is responsible for numbing all feelings. For how can pleasure be liberated | 148 POSITIVITY AND NEGATIVITY: ONE ENERGY CURRENT |
| must fight against this frustration. Any kind of numbing process, any attempt to deny a genuine inner | 167 FROZEN LIFE CENTER BECOMES ALIVE |
| to the traumatic experience that has created the numbing experience in this lifetime -- which always happens | 167 FROZEN LIFE CENTER BECOMES ALIVE |
| subtle emotional climate with an intense shrinking and numbing defense. This is a shock reaction. You will | 167 FROZEN LIFE CENTER BECOMES ALIVE |
| perspective. You can then see yourself cramping up, numbing yourself, denying the experience of abandonment. As you | 167 FROZEN LIFE CENTER BECOMES ALIVE |
| of your state of contraction, of hardening and numbing yourself, of warding off experience from within and | 187 (THE WAY TO HANDLE) ALTERNATION OF EXPANSIVE AND CONTRACTING STATES |
| feeling, you block the experience. You anesthetize yourself. Numbing and denying often seems the only protection against | 191 INNER AND OUTER EXPERIENCE |
| reacting differently to pain than by building its numbing defenses. This is true only when in previous | 191 INNER AND OUTER EXPERIENCE |
| judgment. At certain stages in life the temporary numbing fulfills a benign function until the soul is | 214 PSYCHIC NUCLEAR POINTS |
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| referred to. You all know that shock causes numbness. Your body, as well as your nerves and | 41 IMAGES: THE DAMAGE THEY DO |
| your world of feeling into a state of numbness and thereby prohibit yourself from truly loving others | 89 EMOTIONAL GROWTH AND ITS FUNCTION |
| yet is unable to prevent it -- or numbness and impoverishment of feelings in other areas, are | 121 DISPLACEMENT, SUBSTITUTION, SUPERIMPOSITION |
| processes of self-finding. Evil is, or results from, numbness and a confusion about the execution of control | 134 THE CONCEPT OF EVIL |
| about the execution of control. Why is evil numbness? When you think of the defense mechanisms operating | 134 THE CONCEPT OF EVIL |
| operating in the human psyche, the connection between numbness and evil becomes quite clear. Children who feel | 134 THE CONCEPT OF EVIL |
| their own psyche. Children cannot cope with either. Numbness is also a protection against their own contradictory | 134 THE CONCEPT OF EVIL |
| might even be a salvation. But when such numbness has become second nature and is maintained long | 134 THE CONCEPT OF EVIL |
| of evil; this is how evil is born. Numbness and insensitivity toward one's own pain in turn | 134 THE CONCEPT OF EVIL |
| toward one's own pain in turn means equal numbness and insensitivity toward others. When examining one's reactions | 134 THE CONCEPT OF EVIL |
| sympathy. But these are only substitutes for the numbness. The numbness, instituted for oneself, inevitably spreads to | 134 THE CONCEPT OF EVIL |
| these are only substitutes for the numbness. The numbness, instituted for oneself, inevitably spreads to others, just | 134 THE CONCEPT OF EVIL |
| others. We might differentiate between three stages of numbness. First, numbness toward the self, a protective mechanism | 134 THE CONCEPT OF EVIL |
| might differentiate between three stages of numbness. First, numbness toward the self, a protective mechanism. Second is | 134 THE CONCEPT OF EVIL |
| the self, a protective mechanism. Second is the numbness toward others. In this stage, it is a | 134 THE CONCEPT OF EVIL |
| in the long run. The third stage of numbness is actively inflicted cruelty. This stage arises from | 134 THE CONCEPT OF EVIL |
| subtle process of strengthening the protective device of numbness. At first, this may appear incomprehensible. But when | 134 THE CONCEPT OF EVIL |
| always connected with fear. The borderline between passive numbness and active cruelty is often very thin and | 134 THE CONCEPT OF EVIL |
| Hence, it is a stronger device to attain numbness. You must always distinguish between the active deeds | 134 THE CONCEPT OF EVIL |
| or cruelty, and emotional tendencies. The indifference or numbness may not be actively executed; it is possible | 134 THE CONCEPT OF EVIL |
| it is possible to experience this nonparticipation and numbness but not act upon it. You may do | 134 THE CONCEPT OF EVIL |
| in this light, it will be clear that numbness in its extreme becomes active cruelty. The difference | 134 THE CONCEPT OF EVIL |
| guilt. Therefore a correlation must exist between one's numbness and one's approach or attitude toward the evil | 134 THE CONCEPT OF EVIL |
| Any such overreaction must be connected with the numbness that, in some respect, has been instituted in | 134 THE CONCEPT OF EVIL |
| instituted in the psyche. At one time this numbness seemed like the only available protection; later it | 134 THE CONCEPT OF EVIL |
| much connected. Since helplessness causes pain, pain causes numbness, and numbness leads to evil, it becomes clear | 134 THE CONCEPT OF EVIL |
| Since helplessness causes pain, pain causes numbness, and numbness leads to evil, it becomes clear that imbalance | 134 THE CONCEPT OF EVIL |
| you withdraw love, you become numb. Although this numbness during childhood was a protective shield against cruelty | 134 THE CONCEPT OF EVIL |
| inner being with giving up the unconscious deliberate numbness. The way to approach the relationship between the | 134 THE CONCEPT OF EVIL |
| the inner being for the purpose of eliminating numbness might be the following: My outer-directed will cannot | 134 THE CONCEPT OF EVIL |
| letting go, which is withdrawal, indifference, non-involvement, non-commitment, numbness of feelings, separateness and refusal to love. When | 137 BALANCE OF INNER AND OUTER CONTROL |
| disintegration, confusion, suffering, and an inner division and numbness that makes life appear difficult, ugly, removed and | 139 DEADENING OF THE LIVE CENTER THROUGH MISINTERPRETATION OF REALITY |
| is always a more hidden level where the numbness is very deliberately instituted. When this is finally | 147 THE NATURE OF LIFE AND HUMAN NATURE |
| are created because nothing is as frightening as numbness. Even though you created the numbness to protect | 147 THE NATURE OF LIFE AND HUMAN NATURE |
| frightening as numbness. Even though you created the numbness to protect yourself from the supposed dangers of | 147 THE NATURE OF LIFE AND HUMAN NATURE |
| feeling of excitement is supposed to ward off numbness, dullness, boredom. The real feeling of aliveness and | 147 THE NATURE OF LIFE AND HUMAN NATURE |
| experience. This must not be confused with the numbness that is the result of a hidden layer | 151 INTENSITY: AN OBSTACLE TO SELF-REALIZATION |
| this shame is the key to finding a numbness that causes despair and frustration, because it leads | 152 CONNECTION BETWEEN THE EGO AND THE UNIVERSAL POWER |
| torture and hopelessness, on the one hand, and numbness, lifelessness, on the other -- is assumed by | 160 CONCILIATION OF THE INNER SPLIT |
| The further result of this state is the numbness, lifelessness and deadness of feelings that we repeatedly | 164 FURTHER ASPECTS OF POLARITY -- SELFISHNESS |
| in our work together. We often discuss this numbness and deadness in connection with other more limited | 164 FURTHER ASPECTS OF POLARITY -- SELFISHNESS |
| the greatest cross to bear. As I said, numbness dulls pain and fear. But in doing so | 167 FROZEN LIFE CENTER BECOMES ALIVE |
| because pain and fear cannot be dealt with, numbness is supposed to be the solution. And movement | 167 FROZEN LIFE CENTER BECOMES ALIVE |
| to be the solution. And movement removes the numbness -- therefore you reject movement, not knowing that | 167 FROZEN LIFE CENTER BECOMES ALIVE |
| find yourself back in the old state of numbness. Here, too, indirect processes are at work. Some | 167 FROZEN LIFE CENTER BECOMES ALIVE |
| and therefore in a state of strife and numbness. Joyful, fruitful, meaningful living implies a commensurate degree | 173 BASIC ATTITUDES AND PRACTICES TO OPEN THE CENTERS - RIGHT ATTITUDE TOWARD FRUSTRATION |
| surface, manifesting as a lack of awareness or numbness. Consciousness is diminished on the surface but continues | 175 CONSCIOUSNESS: FASCINATION WITH CREATION |
| unnecessary state. When you listen into your unfeeling numbness, you will detect painful longing and other undesirable | 187 (THE WAY TO HANDLE) ALTERNATION OF EXPANSIVE AND CONTRACTING STATES |
| where pain has not been experienced that defensive numbness occurs -- and hence neurosis, destructiveness, deadness. It | 191 INNER AND OUTER EXPERIENCE |
| how past experience repeats itself. Your state of numbness about your past feelings numbs you to similar | 192 REAL AND FALSE NEEDS |
| of acceptance. Once the covering crust of outer numbness has been removed by your efforts on your | 192 REAL AND FALSE NEEDS |
| only inside of yourself. The outer deadness and numbness seem the result of having given up evil | 195 IDENTIFICATION WITH THE SPIRITUAL SELF TO OVERCOME NEGATIVE INTENTIONALITY |
| stagnation becomes preferred as the lesser evil. This numbness may be regretted and the yearning therefore may | 207 THE SPIRITUAL SYMBOLISM AND SIGNIFICANCE OF SEXUALITY |
| your energies without understanding the consciousness behind the numbness and deadness that issues from a negative intent | 214 PSYCHIC NUCLEAR POINTS |
| closes the perceptive organs: blindness, deafness, dumbness, and numbness set in. The only way to come out | 217 THE PHENOMENON OF CONSCIOUSNESS |
| states of consciousness in which ugliness, brutality, cruelty, numbness, limitation of mind -- including shrewdness, as opposed | 222 TRANSFORMATION OF THE LOWER SELF |
| wake up more. Take yourself out of your numbness. Look at it, feel it, the force within | 225 EVOLUTIONARY STAGES OF INDIVIDUAL AND GROUP CONSCIOUSNESS |
| lie out of the truth -- create a numbness toward the cosmic, eternal aliveness that can be | 248 THREE PRINCIPLES OF THE FORCES OF EVIL -- PERSONIFICATION OF EVIL |
| individual when there is truth and clarity. This numbness, created out of confusion and chaos, inevitably inflicts | 248 THREE PRINCIPLES OF THE FORCES OF EVIL -- PERSONIFICATION OF EVIL |
| learn from others. Too often a bland, dull numbness encases you into a half-vague, opinionated, incomplete, secretive | 257 ASPECTS OF THE NEW DIVINE INFLUX: COMMUNICATION, GROUP CONSCIOUSNESS, EXPOSURE |