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churches there are priests -- and I have childhood memories in mind -- and when you ask 11 SELF-KNOWLEDGE -- THE GREAT PLAN -- THE SPIRIT WORLD
reacts accordingly. The incident may have occurred in childhood, or earlier in infancy, or perhaps in a 14 THE HIGHER SELF, THE LOWER SELF, AND THE MASK
a call. They are still in their spiritual childhood and such a call would be meaningless for 17 THE CALL -- DAILY REVIEW
course of a lifetime, usually even in earliest childhood or infancy, every personality forms certain impressions due 38 IMAGES
reaction. Or the person represses knowledge about the childhood incident but realizes intellectually that resistance to bathing 38 IMAGES
have not changed. At one time in your childhood you had a shock. When you think of 41 IMAGES: THE DAMAGE THEY DO
cannot be found unless one relives emotionally one's childhood and penetrates the irrational layers of consciousness. Merely 41 IMAGES: THE DAMAGE THEY DO
that makes you ashamed now was in your childhood in accord with your capacity to reason and 41 IMAGES: THE DAMAGE THEY DO
hand. If you have certain experiences in your childhood, it is because you have certain parents, and 41 IMAGES: THE DAMAGE THEY DO
to take that first step out of spiritual childhood, toward becoming a strong and independent child of 43 THREE BASIC PERSONALITY TYPES: REASON, WILL, EMOTION
to work from two sides: (1) examine your childhood and your reactions at the time and (2 45 THE CONFLICT BETWEEN CONSCIOUS AND UNCONSCIOUS DESIRES
on the personal images that formed during your childhood and that are responsible for the mishaps in 45 THE CONFLICT BETWEEN CONSCIOUS AND UNCONSCIOUS DESIRES
Unconsciously, your old feelings are carried over from childhood, and authority now restricts you as an adult 47 THE WALL WITHIN
You can and should retrace all this to childhood feelings and reactions to your early environment. Only 47 THE WALL WITHIN
bad nor in any way harmful -- in childhood as well as later -- were forbidden by 47 THE WALL WITHIN
is this, my friends: think back to your childhood and find the times when you revolted. When 47 THE WALL WITHIN
out your attitude toward authority as such. Your childhood reactions still color your present reactions without your 47 THE WALL WITHIN
reactions, as well as going back to your childhood, but once this practice is established, you can 47 THE WALL WITHIN
them. Most of you go through this in childhood. After childhood this situation may repeat itself for 47 THE WALL WITHIN
of you go through this in childhood. After childhood this situation may repeat itself for the adult 47 THE WALL WITHIN
life from this particular point of view, covering childhood, adolescence, young adult life, and so on. Let 48 THE LIFE FORCE IN THE UNIVERSE
circle that is my subject tonight begins in childhood, where all images are formed. The child is 50 THE VICIOUS CIRCLE
at times break out in the open during childhood does not necessarily mean that it might not 50 THE VICIOUS CIRCLE
a predominance of one kind of authority in childhood, the reaction to that will become the unconscious 52 THE GOD-IMAGE
injustice in the course of your life, in childhood as well as in adulthood. If these injustices 52 THE GOD-IMAGE
the particular kind of predominant authority experienced in childhood, but also on the characteristics the entity has 52 THE GOD-IMAGE
may have manifested as the weaker elements during childhood, the impression on the individual soul may be 52 THE GOD-IMAGE
need to re-experience the relevant emotions of their childhood. When they feel how much it hurt not 61 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS
that it is a re- enactment of frustrated childhood experience. Such a person unconsciously wants to make 61 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS
whole life by certain occurrences and conditions in childhood and youth. Hence, it certainly appears as though 61 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS
solved, but hardly ever during the period of childhood. This is the reason for life, my friends 61 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS
created out of the false impressions of your childhood. You have no idea what a tremendous relief 66 SHAME OF THE HIGHER SELF
were a child, but, as an adult, the childhood situation is no longer valid. Once you realize 67 QUESTION AND ANSWERS
to disappoint you, since part of the illusory childhood world is the desire for instant gratification, the 71 REALITY AND ILLUSION CONCENTRATION EXERCISES
in God. 73. COMPULSION TO RECREATE AND OVERCOME CHILDHOOD HURTS Greetings, my dearest friends. God bless all 73 COMPULSION TO RECREATE AND OVERCOME CHILDHOOD HURTS
unconsciously crying out for what they missed in childhood. This will make them incapable of loving maturely 73 COMPULSION TO RECREATE AND OVERCOME CHILDHOOD HURTS
or give it only in insufficient measure. During childhood, this need is rarely conscious. Children have no 73 COMPULSION TO RECREATE AND OVERCOME CHILDHOOD HURTS
are unhappy. Many of you look back on childhood convinced that you had all the love you 73 COMPULSION TO RECREATE AND OVERCOME CHILDHOOD HURTS
their origin in your attempt to reproduce the childhood situation so as to correct it. This unconscious 73 COMPULSION TO RECREATE AND OVERCOME CHILDHOOD HURTS
situations where your secret aim is to remedy childhood woes. In trying to reproduce the childhood situation 73 COMPULSION TO RECREATE AND OVERCOME CHILDHOOD HURTS
remedy childhood woes. In trying to reproduce the childhood situation, you unconsciously choose a partner with aspects 73 COMPULSION TO RECREATE AND OVERCOME CHILDHOOD HURTS
perfectly aware of the happy aspects of your childhood, but that which hurt deeply and that certain 73 COMPULSION TO RECREATE AND OVERCOME CHILDHOOD HURTS
current dilemma, it will serve to reawaken the childhood hurt. While you face the present hurt, think 73 COMPULSION TO RECREATE AND OVERCOME CHILDHOOD HURTS
reevaluate your present hurt, comparing it with the childhood hurt. At last you will clearly see how 73 COMPULSION TO RECREATE AND OVERCOME CHILDHOOD HURTS
present pain is, it is nevertheless the same childhood pain. A little later you will come to 73 COMPULSION TO RECREATE AND OVERCOME CHILDHOOD HURTS
pain because of your desire to correct the childhood hurt. But at first you only have to 73 COMPULSION TO RECREATE AND OVERCOME CHILDHOOD HURTS
folly of the unconscious desire to recreate the childhood hurt, the frustrating uselessness of it. You will 73 COMPULSION TO RECREATE AND OVERCOME CHILDHOOD HURTS
will release your parents. You will leave your childhood truly behind and start a new inner behavior 73 COMPULSION TO RECREATE AND OVERCOME CHILDHOOD HURTS
also the pain of the unfulfillment of your childhood, then compare the two until, like two separate 73 COMPULSION TO RECREATE AND OVERCOME CHILDHOOD HURTS
the provoking, thereby reproducing conditions similar to your childhood for you to correct. Your fear, your self-punishment 73 COMPULSION TO RECREATE AND OVERCOME CHILDHOOD HURTS
person. Also, as the need to reproduce the childhood situation decreases, you will become less withdrawn and 73 COMPULSION TO RECREATE AND OVERCOME CHILDHOOD HURTS
you who does not want to give up childhood, who wants to be cuddled and pampered, who 74 CONFUSIONS AND HAZY MOTIVATIONS
your images and conflicts, which were created by childhood conditions. While the dissolution of childhood conflicts is 75 THE GREAT TRANSITION IN HUMAN DEVELOPMENT FROM ISOLATION TO UNION
created by childhood conditions. While the dissolution of childhood conflicts is essential to bring about the new 75 THE GREAT TRANSITION IN HUMAN DEVELOPMENT FROM ISOLATION TO UNION
being, it is important to recognize that dissolving childhood conflicts is not an end in itself. If 75 THE GREAT TRANSITION IN HUMAN DEVELOPMENT FROM ISOLATION TO UNION
your aim is to stop short at resolving childhood conflicts and straightening out psychological deviations, you are 75 THE GREAT TRANSITION IN HUMAN DEVELOPMENT FROM ISOLATION TO UNION
that this prevents your happiness. You emerge from childhood with the rarely conscious conviction: In order to 77 SELF-CONFIDENCE: ITS TRUE ORIGIN AND WHAT PROHIBITS IT
used in your adult years to overcome a childhood hurt, if you use all your unconscious energies 78 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS
comes, in one variation or another, from your childhood disappointments. You still have not come to terms 80 COOPERATION, COMMUNICATION, UNION
to master the difficulties created, not only in childhood but also later in life as a consequence 84 LOVE, POWER, SERENITY AS DIVINE ATTRIBUTES AND AS DISTORTIONS
and individually, not only with respect to the childhood situation when these solutions were unconsciously instituted, but 84 LOVE, POWER, SERENITY AS DIVINE ATTRIBUTES AND AS DISTORTIONS
experienced to some degree by every person in childhood. When the instinct of self-preservation is distorted, it 85 DISTORTIONS OF THE INSTINCTS OF SELF-PRESERVATION AND PROCREATION
refuses to face the tragic disadvantages of prolonged childhood. This soul-crippling attitude finally succeeds in really making 88 RELIGION: TRUE AND FALSE
you carry through many incarnations and through your childhood are instrumental in bringing these unconscious conflicts to 88 RELIGION: TRUE AND FALSE
going through the period that was missed in childhood and adolescence, the emotions will finally mature and 89 EMOTIONAL GROWTH AND ITS FUNCTION
this work finds wild emotions going back to childhood, how is it possible to handle them and 89 EMOTIONAL GROWTH AND ITS FUNCTION
brief how an image comes into existence. The childhood hurts and frustrations, which every child experiences at 93 THE LINK BETWEEN THE MAIN IMAGE, REPRESSED NEEDS, AND DEFENSES
new frustration; it is the same hurt from childhood experienced all over again, but it increases his 93 THE LINK BETWEEN THE MAIN IMAGE, REPRESSED NEEDS, AND DEFENSES
you is beginning to want to give up childhood. When this movement is predominant, you feel the 93 THE LINK BETWEEN THE MAIN IMAGE, REPRESSED NEEDS, AND DEFENSES
part of you still holds on frantically to childhood and fears adulthood with its responsibilities and what 93 THE LINK BETWEEN THE MAIN IMAGE, REPRESSED NEEDS, AND DEFENSES
head. Your protection and defense lies in retaining childhood and, as I said, a part of you 93 THE LINK BETWEEN THE MAIN IMAGE, REPRESSED NEEDS, AND DEFENSES
you, at least partly, prepared to give up childhood. QUESTION: You said some time ago that the 93 THE LINK BETWEEN THE MAIN IMAGE, REPRESSED NEEDS, AND DEFENSES
relationship. He is unaware of this need. The childhood experiences with their effect on this particular man 93 THE LINK BETWEEN THE MAIN IMAGE, REPRESSED NEEDS, AND DEFENSES
change itself, of giving up the crutches of childhood. This, in itself, is a very human and 96 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS; COMMENTS ON LAZINESS AS SYMPTOM OF SELF-ALIENATION
lives, their inner and outer struggles, their own childhood -- from whatever you know about them. What 99 FALSIFIED IMPRESSIONS OF PARENTS: THEIR CAUSE AND CURE
when you are finally ready to pass from childhood into adulthood. Even if you die in this 100 MEETING THE PAIN OF DESTRUCTIVE PATTERNS
may not even be aware of the original childhood pain. It may take time and self-observation to 100 MEETING THE PAIN OF DESTRUCTIVE PATTERNS
own feet. The recollection of this advantage of childhood combines with the fear of touching the afflicted 114 STRUGGLE: HEALTHY AND UNHEALTHY
perhaps interesting, speculation. Do not ever forget the childhood hurts that you have not yet come to 114 STRUGGLE: HEALTHY AND UNHEALTHY
problems and deviations come, as you know, from childhood hurts and frustrations -- real or imaginary. When 116 REACHING THE SPIRITUAL CENTER-STRUGGLE BETWEEN LOWER SELF AND SUPERIMPOSED CONSCIENCE
found it to be true that this actual childhood hurt need not burden you for life, but 116 REACHING THE SPIRITUAL CENTER-STRUGGLE BETWEEN LOWER SELF AND SUPERIMPOSED CONSCIENCE
be in God. 117. SHAME: A LEGACY OF CHILDHOOD EXPERIENCES, EVEN FAVORABLE ONES Greetings, my dearest friends 117 SHAME: A LEGACY OF CHILDHOOD EXPERIENCES, EVEN FAVORABLE ONES
in your life, we concentrated on unhappy, painful childhood events and conditions. We found that they were 117 SHAME: A LEGACY OF CHILDHOOD EXPERIENCES, EVEN FAVORABLE ONES
damaging to your self-unfoldment. Hurts and frustrations in childhood have been recognized as the cause for deeply 117 SHAME: A LEGACY OF CHILDHOOD EXPERIENCES, EVEN FAVORABLE ONES
exact opposite. Apparently favorable and positive factors in childhood can be equally responsible for inner distortions. Offhand 117 SHAME: A LEGACY OF CHILDHOOD EXPERIENCES, EVEN FAVORABLE ONES
she seeks what was experienced as love during childhood, over and over again, but cannot find it 117 SHAME: A LEGACY OF CHILDHOOD EXPERIENCES, EVEN FAVORABLE ONES
the real as well as pseudo-love enjoyed in childhood, is connected with the hurts and frustrations suffered 117 SHAME: A LEGACY OF CHILDHOOD EXPERIENCES, EVEN FAVORABLE ONES
dear friends, to examine those aspects in your childhood which you experienced in a pleasurable way. It 117 SHAME: A LEGACY OF CHILDHOOD EXPERIENCES, EVEN FAVORABLE ONES
past, pertaining to the hurts and pain during childhood, will now prove useful in that it will 117 SHAME: A LEGACY OF CHILDHOOD EXPERIENCES, EVEN FAVORABLE ONES
attempt to correct what you lacked in your childhood, but you also try to re-create what you 117 SHAME: A LEGACY OF CHILDHOOD EXPERIENCES, EVEN FAVORABLE ONES
principle, the connection between the damage of pleasurable childhood experience and shame. If a human being wants 117 SHAME: A LEGACY OF CHILDHOOD EXPERIENCES, EVEN FAVORABLE ONES
If a human being wants to reproduce pleasurable childhood conditions in later life, it indicates a desire 117 SHAME: A LEGACY OF CHILDHOOD EXPERIENCES, EVEN FAVORABLE ONES
at the same time desiring the advantages of childhood. The desire to be a child, as well 117 SHAME: A LEGACY OF CHILDHOOD EXPERIENCES, EVEN FAVORABLE ONES
is also connected to both pleasant and unpleasant childhood conditions. The consideration of the exact opposite of 117 SHAME: A LEGACY OF CHILDHOOD EXPERIENCES, EVEN FAVORABLE ONES
it also connects to certain pleasurable circumstances in childhood. Perhaps you were praised for some real qualities 117 SHAME: A LEGACY OF CHILDHOOD EXPERIENCES, EVEN FAVORABLE ONES
organic growth. Your instincts remain in the primitive childhood state, and what was once natural and organic 119 MOVEMENT, CONSCIOUSNESS, EXPERIENCE: PLEASURE, THE ESSENCE OF LIFE
the entanglements among your guilt, repression, fear, early childhood fixations of the pleasure principle, its failure to 119 MOVEMENT, CONSCIOUSNESS, EXPERIENCE: PLEASURE, THE ESSENCE OF LIFE
us now look at certain basic conditions in childhood, which will help you in looking at your 119 MOVEMENT, CONSCIOUSNESS, EXPERIENCE: PLEASURE, THE ESSENCE OF LIFE
will help you in looking at your own childhood. As I mentioned before, the child experiences intense 119 MOVEMENT, CONSCIOUSNESS, EXPERIENCE: PLEASURE, THE ESSENCE OF LIFE
of your past development. When erotic longing in childhood was fulfilled to a degree, due to a 119 MOVEMENT, CONSCIOUSNESS, EXPERIENCE: PLEASURE, THE ESSENCE OF LIFE
believe that only the experience of pleasure during childhood activates the erotic and sexual force in the 119 MOVEMENT, CONSCIOUSNESS, EXPERIENCE: PLEASURE, THE ESSENCE OF LIFE
of negative pleasure and connect them with the childhood circumstances that produced pain and fear. Then you 119 MOVEMENT, CONSCIOUSNESS, EXPERIENCE: PLEASURE, THE ESSENCE OF LIFE
age, dissolved your fixation, or faced your original childhood conditions, it is equally important that the life 119 MOVEMENT, CONSCIOUSNESS, EXPERIENCE: PLEASURE, THE ESSENCE OF LIFE
as unchangeable rather than a temporary stage. The childhood phase must be reexperienced and seen in its 119 MOVEMENT, CONSCIOUSNESS, EXPERIENCE: PLEASURE, THE ESSENCE OF LIFE
When the child leaves infancy behind and enters childhood proper, it has to learn consideration of others 120 THE INDIVIDUAL AND HUMANITY
are. Humanity has now left behind infancy and childhood. It is just about coming through its adolescence 120 THE INDIVIDUAL AND HUMANITY
individual leaves the accustomed and safe period of childhood behind, without possessing, as yet, the necessary equipment 120 THE INDIVIDUAL AND HUMANITY
the cycle. In what way can infancy and childhood be counted from your vantage point? Also in 120 THE INDIVIDUAL AND HUMANITY
marked -- in history -- a shift between childhood and adolescence. It may seem disproportionate that so 120 THE INDIVIDUAL AND HUMANITY
much more time has elapsed from infancy to childhood, and again from childhood to adolescence, while only 120 THE INDIVIDUAL AND HUMANITY
elapsed from infancy to childhood, and again from childhood to adolescence, while only two thousand years have 120 THE INDIVIDUAL AND HUMANITY
I have the feeling that, due to my childhood, I have in me a childish greed which 121 DISPLACEMENT, SUBSTITUTION, SUPERIMPOSITION
into existence in the particular circumstances of your childhood. Important work as that is, it is only 124 THE LANGUAGE OF THE UNCONSCIOUS
in spite of extensive recognitions of images and childhood lessons. You will now detect the destructive feelings 124 THE LANGUAGE OF THE UNCONSCIOUS
existing in the world. Going back to my childhood, I discovered that one of my pseudo-solutions is 134 THE CONCEPT OF EVIL
love, you become numb. Although this numbness during childhood was a protective shield against cruelty from the 134 THE CONCEPT OF EVIL
can be determined not only by remembering your childhood with its strong emotions and deep experiencing, both 139 DEADENING OF THE LIVE CENTER THROUGH MISINTERPRETATION OF REALITY
to use the process that was instituted in childhood, but which now operates greatly to your detriment 139 DEADENING OF THE LIVE CENTER THROUGH MISINTERPRETATION OF REALITY
as they go. They may result from negative childhood experiences, from misinterpretations of childhood events, from hurts 149 COSMIC PULL TOWARD UNION -- FRUSTRATION
result from negative childhood experiences, from misinterpretations of childhood events, from hurts and fears you have not 149 COSMIC PULL TOWARD UNION -- FRUSTRATION
attached to a negative situation, born out of childhood experiences. This makes fulfillment impossible because the experience 149 COSMIC PULL TOWARD UNION -- FRUSTRATION
not want to feel. Whether this stems from childhood and personal traumatic experiences, or connects with the 152 CONNECTION BETWEEN THE EGO AND THE UNIVERSAL POWER
that those who did not receive enough in childhood would find it difficult to give of themselves 155 FEAR OF SELF -- GIVING AND RECEIVING
that they have not received enough in their childhood, and that they have to continue as cripples 155 FEAR OF SELF -- GIVING AND RECEIVING
a tremendous milestone on the road from infanthood, childhood, adolescence, into maturity. As to the problem of 156 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS
much a question of the helpless conditions of childhood, although those may have set it off in 166 PERCEIVING, REACTING, EXPRESSING
this lifetime -- which always happens in early childhood -- it is often impossible to reconstruct it 167 FROZEN LIFE CENTER BECOMES ALIVE
been threatened by abandonment every day since your childhood. Until recently you have denied and ignored this 167 FROZEN LIFE CENTER BECOMES ALIVE
assume that some guilts have not been faced. Childhood Trauma Not Directly Responsible for Neurosis A childhood 171 SPIRITUAL LAWS
Childhood Trauma Not Directly Responsible for Neurosis A childhood trauma produces deprivation, unhappiness, destructive feelings and behavior 171 SPIRITUAL LAWS
might affect the child. Thus, dwelling on the childhood experience alone can give at best a partial 171 SPIRITUAL LAWS
negative responses which at one time in your childhood you could not avoid producing, and which were 176 OVERCOMING NEGATIVITY
of factors outside the control of the patient: childhood, parents, even hereditary factors. All these factors exist 179 CHAIN REACTIONS IN THE DYNAMICS OF CREATIVE LIFE SUBSTANCE
time you believed just the opposite about your childhood. Gaining this knowledge first intellectually is the necessary 190 IMPORTANCE OF EXPERIENCING ALL FEELINGS, INCLUDING FEAR - DYNAMIC STATE OF LAZINESS
such intellectual awareness of the truth of your childhood the defenses cannot be sufficiently weakened for safe 190 IMPORTANCE OF EXPERIENCING ALL FEELINGS, INCLUDING FEAR - DYNAMIC STATE OF LAZINESS
basic elements within it. The first is the childhood conditions which were so painful that you thought 190 IMPORTANCE OF EXPERIENCING ALL FEELINGS, INCLUDING FEAR - DYNAMIC STATE OF LAZINESS
often merely shame/pride and the misconception that the childhood pain existed because of personal inadequacy which the 190 IMPORTANCE OF EXPERIENCING ALL FEELINGS, INCLUDING FEAR - DYNAMIC STATE OF LAZINESS
the gateway of accepting the lacks of your childhood lies your fulfillment now. When you experience all 190 IMPORTANCE OF EXPERIENCING ALL FEELINGS, INCLUDING FEAR - DYNAMIC STATE OF LAZINESS
a time. When life circumstances in your early childhood again inflict pain and deprivation upon you, and 191 INNER AND OUTER EXPERIENCE
for those who caused the original hurt in childhood: You must now give me all I ask 191 INNER AND OUTER EXPERIENCE
a human being has done this, even in childhood the severest of circumstances will be experienced in 191 INNER AND OUTER EXPERIENCE
first experienced in this life during your early childhood and which you had not had the courage 192 REAL AND FALSE NEEDS
seem to be responsible for painful experience in childhood. But, actually, the undeveloped state of the parents 192 REAL AND FALSE NEEDS
later in life. If you have avoided your childhood and are unaware of what truly went on 192 REAL AND FALSE NEEDS
still ardently engaged in trying to fulfill the childhood need with a substitute parent. In your heart 192 REAL AND FALSE NEEDS
-- thereby perpetuating the old wounds of your childhood. Your present state can thus be used as 192 REAL AND FALSE NEEDS
unendurable pain. For no matter how difficult your childhood was, and no matter how much negative experience 192 REAL AND FALSE NEEDS
origin of this negation of life is in childhood. It is now your inner insistence on forcing 195 IDENTIFICATION WITH THE SPIRITUAL SELF TO OVERCOME NEGATIVE INTENTIONALITY
reached, these phases are less noticeable than during childhood; however, they are just as distinct and real 227 CHANGE FROM OUTER TO INNER LAWS IN THE NEW AGE
the drastic change of an infant growing into childhood, then into adolescence, and later into adulthood. Think 230 THE UNIVERSALITY OF CHANGE -- REINCARNATIVE PROCESS IN THE SAME LIFE SPAN
the path as adults or begin it in childhood in a new educational system. The new-age person 231 NEW AGE EDUCATION
a desire to thwart you? Aside from your childhood experiences, or your interpretation of them, the true 240 ASPECTS OF THE ANATOMY OF LOVE: SELF-LOVE, STRUCTURE, FREEDOM
a false idea, a wrong conclusion formed in childhood with insufficient mental equipment to make a correct 247 THE MASS IMAGES OF JUDAISM AND CHRISTIANITY
their weakness stems from having been influenced in childhood to accept Jesus Christ and from not having 247 THE MASS IMAGES OF JUDAISM AND CHRISTIANITY
think carefully, you will note that all the childhood years are part of the birth process. The 255 THE BIRTHING PROCESS -- COSMIC PULSE

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