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lose its exaggerated proportions, and some of its fearful aspects. Being yourself as you really are with 26 FINDING ONE'S FAULTS
They disquiet you; they make you restless and fearful until you have laboriously worked them out and 39 IMAGE-FINDING
soul a foretaste of unity and teaches the fearful psyche the longing for it. The more strongly 44 THE FORCES OF LOVE, EROS, AND SEX
love, fear of the life experience, but the fearful renunciation is rationalized as a sacrifice. To anyone 44 THE FORCES OF LOVE, EROS, AND SEX
attempt to explain away the counter-currents of the fearful or greedy soul with good motives. There is 44 THE FORCES OF LOVE, EROS, AND SEX
with this situation that makes me angry or fearful now? I am angry because I want something 45 THE CONFLICT BETWEEN CONSCIOUS AND UNCONSCIOUS DESIRES
an extent that these selfish, proud, vain, and fearful motives cease to exist in you, the fact 45 THE CONFLICT BETWEEN CONSCIOUS AND UNCONSCIOUS DESIRES
in the measure you recognize the weak and fearful motives of your own law-upholding tendency. Thus you 47 THE WALL WITHIN
to react that way; or denial -- the fearful refusal to look at imperfection which may not 49 OBSTACLES ON THE PATH: OLD STUFF, WRONG GUILT, AND WHO, ME?
at stake. Otherwise you would not be so fearful. This is the abyss into which you should 60 THE ABYSS OF ILLUSION -- FREEDOM AND SELF-RESPONSIBILITY
weakens you and is bound to make you fearful. It enchains you utterly. By seeing the connection 60 THE ABYSS OF ILLUSION -- FREEDOM AND SELF-RESPONSIBILITY
inadequacy and self-contempt that make you weak and fearful toward others. I cannot emphasize strongly enough that 64 OUTER WILL AND INNER WILL -- MISCONCEPTION ABOUT SELFISHNESS
you, to upset you unduly, to make you fearful and worried. Gradually, little by little, you will 69 THE FOLLY OF WATCHING FOR RESULTS WHILE ON THE PATH; THE VALID DESIRE TO BE LOVED
poor, you are separate; you are isolated and fearful. However, this knowledge cannot really help you until 72 THE FEAR OF LOVING
to determine where you are selfish and proud, fearful and withdrawn. Search deep within your inner conflicts 75 THE GREAT TRANSITION IN HUMAN DEVELOPMENT FROM ISOLATION TO UNION
is not a matter of tuning into a fearful mood or a joyful mood. There is no 75 THE GREAT TRANSITION IN HUMAN DEVELOPMENT FROM ISOLATION TO UNION
They disquiet you, they make you restless and fearful until you have laboriously worked them out and 76 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS (Compiled from Private Sessions and Earlier Lectures)
as it truly is, once you dissolve the fearful and tense inner clamoring, I want, I must 77 SELF-CONFIDENCE: ITS TRUE ORIGIN AND WHAT PROHIBITS IT
created it. Not having this knowledge makes you fearful that more suffering may come from this hidden 82 THE CONQUEST OF DUALITY SYMBOLIZED IN THE LIFE AND DEATH OF JESUS
not getting it. When you flee from love, fearful that you may not get it anyway, or 82 THE CONQUEST OF DUALITY SYMBOLIZED IN THE LIFE AND DEATH OF JESUS
it. In a similar way, you reject love, fearful of being hurt, not getting it, or losing 82 THE CONQUEST OF DUALITY SYMBOLIZED IN THE LIFE AND DEATH OF JESUS
unsuccessful, half-hearted attempt is made to obtain fulfillment, fearful souls will regard any minor rejection, criticism, or 86 THE INSTINCTS OF SELF-PRESERVATION AND PROCREATION IN CONFLICT
struggle of life, they cringe like the predominantly fearful and appeasing type, but are ashamed of this 88 RELIGION: TRUE AND FALSE
discovery by making yourself even more helpless, more fearful, and weaker. Once you truly see and understand 88 RELIGION: TRUE AND FALSE
against God by appeasing Him even more with fearful obedience that is entirely on the surface and 88 RELIGION: TRUE AND FALSE
and which makes you even more insecure and fearful of exposure. Deep inside you know of your 89 EMOTIONAL GROWTH AND ITS FUNCTION
hurt is to be arrogant, rejecting, superior, and fearful. All these are traits which do not inspire 93 THE LINK BETWEEN THE MAIN IMAGE, REPRESSED NEEDS, AND DEFENSES
lack of acceptance makes you blind, self-centered, and fearful. Only in learning acceptance can you attain the 96 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS; COMMENTS ON LAZINESS AS SYMPTOM OF SELF-ALIENATION
be safe. To give up being a helpless, fearful baby means to you that people will no 96 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS; COMMENTS ON LAZINESS AS SYMPTOM OF SELF-ALIENATION
Or, if you happen to be a more fearful and pessimistic character, you will not admit their 97 PERFECTIONISM OBSTRUCTS HAPPINESS -- MANIPULATION OF EMOTIONS
to leave your inner isolation. You are too fearful and selfish, too self-centered in a negative sense 98 WISHFUL DAYDREAMS
is possible that you are still self-involved, withdrawn, fearful, anxious, bound, and blind to the other person 99 FALSIFIED IMPRESSIONS OF PARENTS: THEIR CAUSE AND CURE
your surroundings when you are no longer defensive, fearful, withdrawn, and falsely superior. You are then open 100 MEETING THE PAIN OF DESTRUCTIVE PATTERNS
not good enough, your innermost self will be fearful, even if your actions are entirely proper and 102 THE SEVEN CARDINAL SINS
or wrong. Now, my friends, are you too fearful to love? Too withdrawn? Do you not dare 103 HARM OF TOO MUCH LOVE GIVING -- CONSTRUCTIVE AND DESTRUCTIVE WILL FORCES
resigned and withdrawn, become apathetic and are too fearful to want to lead a meaningful life; if 103 HARM OF TOO MUCH LOVE GIVING -- CONSTRUCTIVE AND DESTRUCTIVE WILL FORCES
But then, as he grows more conflicted and fearful, after his desires become more urgent, all these 105 HUMANITY'S RELATIONSHIP TO GOD IN VARIOUS STAGES OF DEVELOPMENT
made on you. You are often unconsciously so fearful of demands, or of your compulsion to give 111 SOUL-SUBSTANCE -- COPING WITH DEMANDS
considerable headway. Others are still too blocked and fearful. But even they will eventually muster the courage 119 MOVEMENT, CONSCIOUSNESS, EXPERIENCE: PLEASURE, THE ESSENCE OF LIFE
onto the little self, may experience death as fearful seclusion and separateness, but for those who are 123 LIBERATION AND PEACE BY OVERCOMING FEAR OF THE UNKNOWN
but distinct No to a cherished fulfillment, a fearful cringing from it that you cannot explain and 125 TRANSITION FROM THE NO-CURRENT TO THE YES-CURRENT
many times you were in a fierce and fearful No, but after you overcame it, the relief 125 TRANSITION FROM THE NO-CURRENT TO THE YES-CURRENT
misunderstood spirituality is a product of the greedy, fearful, weak, dependent child. The less the person is 126 CONTACT WITH THE LIFE FORCE
forcing-current, childish greed, the inability to stand frustration, fearful withdrawal, tension, the compulsive need to manipulate, the 127 EVOLUTION'S FOUR STAGES: AUTOMATIC REFLEXES, AWARENESS, UNDERSTANDING, KNOWING
appear contradictory. It is much more that your fearful withdrawal from life causes a lack of understanding 127 EVOLUTION'S FOUR STAGES: AUTOMATIC REFLEXES, AWARENESS, UNDERSTANDING, KNOWING
accept what they observed. Due to your self-inflicted, fearful blindness, you are paralyzed; you do not move 128 LIMITATIONS CREATED THROUGH ILLUSORY ALTERNATIVES
she is at the moment least resisting, least fearful. One of her great stumbling blocks is a 128 LIMITATIONS CREATED THROUGH ILLUSORY ALTERNATIVES
be just that. Many of your victories over fearful resistance are the living proof of what it 133 LOVE: NOT A COMMANDMENT, BUT SPONTANEOUS SOUL MOVEMENT OF THE INNER SELF
rejected again, or a little rejected, or being fearful that rejection may occur. QUESTION: But they didn't 135 MOBILITY IN RELAXATION-SUFFERING THROUGH ATTACHMENT OF LIFE FORCE TO NEGATIVE SITUATIONS
words cannot describe it. What was difficult, laborious, fearful, bleak, strained, and lonely will become easy, self-perpetuating 138 THE HUMAN PREDICAMENT OF DESIRE FOR, AND FEAR OF, CLOSENESS
what is hopeless into bright hope, what is fearful into deep security and confidence. It will change 138 THE HUMAN PREDICAMENT OF DESIRE FOR, AND FEAR OF, CLOSENESS
You do not stop this movement with your fearful mind, holding it in check and bringing it 140 CONFLICT OF POSITIVE VERSUS NEGATIVE ORIENTED PLEASURE AS THE ORIGIN OF PAIN
positive position is only tentative, so uncertain, so fearful, so divided, so defensive and apprehensive that these 140 CONFLICT OF POSITIVE VERSUS NEGATIVE ORIENTED PLEASURE AS THE ORIGIN OF PAIN
depends on the individual's state of development. The fearful person experiences this vibration as a terrifying dissolution 141 RETURN TO THE ORIGINAL LEVEL OF PERFECTION
self, into truth that goes way beyond the fearful little ego's interests. When this truth is sought 143 UNITY AND DUALITY
does not mean resignation, nor does it mean fearful giving in or weakness. It means going with 143 UNITY AND DUALITY
In that opposition your soul is agitated and fearful, and in that state you can never attain 144 THE PROCESS AND SIGNIFICANCE OF GROWING
to stop doing so, but you are too fearful to risk. Hence you remain in the status 147 THE NATURE OF LIFE AND HUMAN NATURE
is spontaneously and honestly experienced, unhampered by the fearful, distrustful or cunning ego, can ever be a 147 THE NATURE OF LIFE AND HUMAN NATURE
foreign elements that seem more palatable to the fearful soul. The only way out is to understand 149 COSMIC PULL TOWARD UNION -- FRUSTRATION
bound to outer rules and regulations, tight and fearful. Discipline is used against truth, not for truth 153 THE SELF-REGULATING NATURE OF INVOLUNTARY PROCESSES
regular and rhythmic. A sick or disturbed and fearful heart automatically loses this rhythmic quality. On the 154 PULSATION OF CONSCIOUSNESS
in their own natural way, uninfluenced by the fearful level of your consciousness. Allow the natural organism 154 PULSATION OF CONSCIOUSNESS
the physical pulsation happen without interference by a fearful, distrusting attitude. Cooperate with this inner lawfulness by 154 PULSATION OF CONSCIOUSNESS
life when you do not cramp up against fearful experience, but allow your innermost soul movement to 154 PULSATION OF CONSCIOUSNESS
in one sweep. There is the old, childish, fearful self, geared to the old mechanisms of false 156 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS
up the process to connect with the dissenting, fearful side -- the side that resists the liberation 156 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS
energy is the result of holding back, of fearful denial of what is. The dissolution of this 156 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS
as much pain and shame as this inner, fearful, weak spot which makes them feel impotent and 157 INFINITE POSSIBILITIES OF EXPERIENCE HINDERED BY EMOTIONAL DEPENDENCY
blindly driven to act the way the unconscious, fearful, life-refusing part dictates. This is then rationalized and 158 THE EGO'S COOPERATION WITH OR OBSTRUCTION OF THE REAL SELF
it, is so great that when the distorted, fearful personality hinders this natural process, unnatural processes are 161 UNCONSCIOUS NEGATIVITY ENDANGERS SURRENDER OF EGO TO INVOLUNTARY PROCESSES
whose egotistical, sick interests play into your own fearful, dependent self, the part that wants to abdicate 164 FURTHER ASPECTS OF POLARITY -- SELFISHNESS
autonomy to a mate because she is too fearful and lazy to assume the consequences for her 169 THE MASCULINE AND FEMININE PRINCIPLES IN THE CREATIVE PROCESS
separately, with intelligence, whole investment and integrity. No fearful sentimentality must blur your view to your rights 172 THE LIFE ENERGY CENTERS
you are weak and dependent, you must be fearful. Hence, you must lack the courage for the 172 THE LIFE ENERGY CENTERS
If you let go in a sense of fearful, resigned, obedient, sacrificial deprivation, you remain in duality 172 THE LIFE ENERGY CENTERS
this belief, you will still feel hopeless, depressed, fearful or anxious, entangled in apparently insoluble conflicts with 183 THE SPIRITUAL MEANING OF CRISIS
it go at that. The meaning of such fearful, uncomfortable, anxious reaction is plainly an expression that 184 THE MEANING OF EVIL AND ITS TRANSCENDENCE
in revenge and spite. The person is also fearful of what life brings, for how could it 187 (THE WAY TO HANDLE) ALTERNATION OF EXPANSIVE AND CONTRACTING STATES
human beings are still in the state of fearful defense against living, even when there is no 188 AFFECTING AND BEING AFFECTED
action. It is only the passivity of the fearful self that creates frenzy as a counter-action against 190 IMPORTANCE OF EXPERIENCING ALL FEELINGS, INCLUDING FEAR - DYNAMIC STATE OF LAZINESS
still believes that the pseudo-safety of this cramped, fearful position is preferable to annihilation. Only after finally 190 IMPORTANCE OF EXPERIENCING ALL FEELINGS, INCLUDING FEAR - DYNAMIC STATE OF LAZINESS
by life, which cannot be manipulated by the fearful, small, controlling mind. When you substitute a forcing 191 INNER AND OUTER EXPERIENCE
state is the true isolation of the disunified, fearful being, who issues a forcing current into the 191 INNER AND OUTER EXPERIENCE
can come only when there is no tight, fearful attitude and when the readiness to deal with 194 MEDITATION: LAWS AND VARIOUS APPROACHES-SUMMARY (MEDITATION AS POSITIVE LIFE CREATION)
fairness more than the apparent advantages of the fearful, holding, vain little ego, your liberation will truly 198 TRANSITION TO POSITIVE INTENTIONALITY
as you contain your positive forces in a fearful, untrusting and spiteful attitude. But when you can 198 TRANSITION TO POSITIVE INTENTIONALITY
state that often makes your life unbearably lonely, fearful, and meaningless. Unfathomable death is terrifying, and although 199 THE MEANING OF THE EGO AND ITS TRANSCENDENCE
feelings are loving or hateful, angry or benign, fearful or peaceful, their energy must create according to 204 WHAT IS THE PATH?
positive desire or greedy, distorted desire from a fearful rejection of life's pattern. As your meditation practice 206 DESIRE: CREATIVE OR DESTRUCTIVE
the inner person is still too puzzled and fearful to do otherwise. The evil is denied and 207 THE SPIRITUAL SYMBOLISM AND SIGNIFICANCE OF SEXUALITY
of truth -- without struggle and panic, without fearful ideas of finality -- will make you aware 211 OUTER EVENTS REFLECT SELF-CREATION -- THREE STAGES
But the time must come when every last fearful individual will stand up and throw off the 213 THE SPIRITUAL AND THE PRACTICAL MEANING OF LET GO, LET GOD
deeper, longer lasting, and less fraught with subsequent fearful contraction. You become more capable of fulfillment because 213 THE SPIRITUAL AND THE PRACTICAL MEANING OF LET GO, LET GOD
directed by the real, divine self. Only the fearful, separated, fragmented and stubborn mind can halt the 214 PSYCHIC NUCLEAR POINTS
QUESTION: What is the positive aspect of a fearful, anxious state? ANSWER: Fear, in general, is a 219 CHRISTMAS MESSAGE -- MESSAGE TO THE CHILDREN
other things and other people in the same fearful way you do now. You can really learn 219 CHRISTMAS MESSAGE -- MESSAGE TO THE CHILDREN
cleanse the residual little selfishnesses that make you fearful. You believe you cannot give all of yourself 223 THE ERA OF THE NEW AGE AND NEW CONSCIOUSNESS
comes when you do become conscious of this fearful thought. Then the first reaction is very often 224 CREATIVE EMPTINESS
division and self-denial, you must feel pessimistic and fearful about the world and see it only in 233 THE POWER OF THE WORD
only in fragments, out of context, reaffirming your fearful visions. Thus the process of the pathwork is 233 THE POWER OF THE WORD
self-devaluation into your inner being, you must become fearful, you avoid moving out, you prevent your heart 233 THE POWER OF THE WORD
the real state of perfection. Such a prideful, fearful, untruthful attitude indicates lack of faith in your 234 PERFECTION, IMMORTALITY, OMNIPOTENCE
misunderstood, misrepresented and misused by the prideful, domineering, fearful ego, so that perfection was forced, pretended, punitively 234 PERFECTION, IMMORTALITY, OMNIPOTENCE
and loving or still unenlightened, defensive, hating, and fearful. So love is in everything. Thus we now 240 ASPECTS OF THE ANATOMY OF LOVE: SELF-LOVE, STRUCTURE, FREEDOM
love and freedom. The first two alternatives of fearful acceptance and blind rebellion are obviously unloving and 240 ASPECTS OF THE ANATOMY OF LOVE: SELF-LOVE, STRUCTURE, FREEDOM
to assume because he is too lazy, too fearful, too selfish, too self-indulgent, he commits as grave 242 THE SPIRITUAL MEANING OF POLITICAL SYSTEMS
ready on its evolutionary journey. When this separated, fearful, doubting part remains unconscious, the longing for eternal 243 THE GREAT EXISTENTIAL FEAR AND LONGING
in your daily meditations. When you are unhappy, fearful, discouraged, in darkness, know at least that you 250 INNER AWARENESS OF GRACE -- EXPOSING THE DEFICIT
one cannot exist without the other. Where distrustful, fearful holding back makes it impossible for the soul 250 INNER AWARENESS OF GRACE -- EXPOSING THE DEFICIT
should begin by pointing out how painful and fearful duality really is. For this is often so 253 CONTINUE YOUR STRUGGLE AND CEASE ALL STRUGGLE
mind becomes more firmly entrenched in the painful, fearful dualism through straining from the undesirable alternative, then 253 CONTINUE YOUR STRUGGLE AND CEASE ALL STRUGGLE
you can agree or disagree without rebellion or fearful submission. The road to the clarity and ability 256 INNER SPACE, FOCUSED EMPTINESS

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