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to want to appear superior to others. You hide your faults, you hide your shortcomings, and you 17 THE CALL -- DAILY REVIEW
superior to others. You hide your faults, you hide your shortcomings, and you want to show your 17 THE CALL -- DAILY REVIEW
in the lives of others. Your fears also hide your light of love, understanding, and truth. So 26 FINDING ONE'S FAULTS
you really think and feel about yourself and hide it behind a wall, so to speak. You 31 SHAME
not the point. You cover it up; you hide it; you appear to be without that something 31 SHAME
security and self-respect. For as long as you hide behind a wall of falsity, you must despise 31 SHAME
deceive and escape yourself, or how much you hide behind a wall of pretense. This wall of 31 SHAME
not only with what you consciously know and hide. That is comparatively easy. Once you are able 31 SHAME
it away; in that way it will only hide in your soul and cause you more harm 39 IMAGE-FINDING
remember them because you felt the need to hide this whole procedure for its lack of rational 41 IMAGES: THE DAMAGE THEY DO
not want to have this pride, therefore I hide it from myself. Your concern about other people's 42 CHRISTMAS BLESSINGS -- OBJECTIVITY AND SUBJECTIVITY
off something that is alive. You can only hide it so that it will come out in 44 THE FORCES OF LOVE, EROS, AND SEX
the higher aims, which serve very well to hide their existence. It is very important to find 45 THE CONFLICT BETWEEN CONSCIOUS AND UNCONSCIOUS DESIRES
will understand why you felt it necessary to hide the existence of the bad motives from your 45 THE CONFLICT BETWEEN CONSCIOUS AND UNCONSCIOUS DESIRES
order to safeguard their own position and to hide their own rebellion -- which deep down is 47 THE WALL WITHIN
as a camouflage behind which you continue to hide. This happens so frequently, my friends. No truth 47 THE WALL WITHIN
truths to reinforce the wall. So you can hide your faults, emotional conflicts, fears, and negative trends 47 THE WALL WITHIN
fallen unconsciously into this trap. You may even hide behind a true recognition about yourself, let us 47 THE WALL WITHIN
or certain faults you have found. You may hide behind that, you may use that as the 47 THE WALL WITHIN
utterly unaware about it in oneself. You may hide behind a different truth, behind a different recognition 47 THE WALL WITHIN
behind a different recognition, yet you also may hide just as much as the other person. Take 47 THE WALL WITHIN
a disadvantage to show them openly. Thus they hide the destructive impulses and thereby create obstructions and 49 OBSTACLES ON THE PATH: OLD STUFF, WRONG GUILT, AND WHO, ME?
an absurd, unjustified guilt as a shield and hide the true guilt behind it. Why? Because deep 49 OBSTACLES ON THE PATH: OLD STUFF, WRONG GUILT, AND WHO, ME?
absurd guilt you use as a wall to hide behind. What are absurd guilts? They are most 49 OBSTACLES ON THE PATH: OLD STUFF, WRONG GUILT, AND WHO, ME?
of using the many layers of consciousness to hide reactions that do not accord with these truths 49 OBSTACLES ON THE PATH: OLD STUFF, WRONG GUILT, AND WHO, ME?
you may have bent over backwards trying to hide what was behind it. Now you feel abused 49 OBSTACLES ON THE PATH: OLD STUFF, WRONG GUILT, AND WHO, ME?
may succeed in justifying your opinions -- may hide the weak and dependent motives. Do not forget 51 IMPORTANCE OF FORMING INDEPENDENT OPINIONS
-- or whether these valid motives may also hide a selfish one. You will know how to 52 THE GOD-IMAGE
God's will cannot manifest if you make decisions hide a fear that you are responsible and may 54 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS
this is what you must feel when you hide behind this wall of a fallacy. Such fallacies 54 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS
is also frowned upon. So it learns to hide this desire until the hiding has progressed so 58 THE DESIRE FOR HAPPINESS AND THE DESIRE FOR UNHAPPINESS
itself unique in having failed and has to hide this shameful fact. Even when the person has 58 THE DESIRE FOR HAPPINESS AND THE DESIRE FOR UNHAPPINESS
use the good aim as a screen to hide and foster erroneous motives. In woman it often 62 MAN AND WOMAN
the other hand, the woman may suppress and hide her aggression, hostility, and resentment for the man 62 MAN AND WOMAN
use it constructively instead of compulsively seeking to hide it, or using it destructively out of an 62 MAN AND WOMAN
by another human being and may decide to hide behind a wall. This may not be a 63 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS
love must be something shameful one has to hide. The realization that your fear of loving is 66 SHAME OF THE HIGHER SELF
main component of the wall behind which you hide the real you is the shame of imagined 66 SHAME OF THE HIGHER SELF
shame of loving and giving causes you to hide your true self behind a wall. The inevitable 66 SHAME OF THE HIGHER SELF
wrong to have thought that you have to hide the best in you, that it is something 66 SHAME OF THE HIGHER SELF
keep your real self hidden. One person will hide it behind a mask of aloofness and pseudo-strength 66 SHAME OF THE HIGHER SELF
a mask of aloofness and pseudo-strength. Another will hide it behind a superimposed layer of something that 66 SHAME OF THE HIGHER SELF
for such love and at the same time hide from it in fear. The child in you 72 THE FEAR OF LOVING
intellectually mature person will find adequate reasons to hide this emotional reaction and subjectivity. That is what 73 COMPULSION TO RECREATE AND OVERCOME CHILDHOOD HURTS
it away. In that way it will only hide in your soul and cause you more harm 76 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS (Compiled from Private Sessions and Earlier Lectures)
of not succeeding and unconsciously you labor to hide the failure from yourself. Thus a current is 77 SELF-CONFIDENCE: ITS TRUE ORIGIN AND WHAT PROHIBITS IT
guilty about. If you attack in order to hide something, it will make you as helpless as 77 SELF-CONFIDENCE: ITS TRUE ORIGIN AND WHAT PROHIBITS IT
may even bend over backwards so as to hide this attitude from others and yourself. Nevertheless, it 79 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS
moment. But he acknowledged it, and did not hide it from himself or from others. What does 82 THE CONQUEST OF DUALITY SYMBOLIZED IN THE LIFE AND DEATH OF JESUS
you expect from yourself. When you try to hide your reactions to your own failure, you use 83 THE IDEALIZED SELF-IMAGE
to life because you no longer have to hide something from yourself and others. You will be 83 THE IDEALIZED SELF-IMAGE
the healthy way will not cause you to hide from emotions, experience, life, and your own conflicts 84 LOVE, POWER, SERENITY AS DIVINE ATTRIBUTES AND AS DISTORTIONS
embellish a situation to your friends; how you hide by subtly coloring that which seems painful and 85 DISTORTIONS OF THE INSTINCTS OF SELF-PRESERVATION AND PROCREATION
the demands, the more you feel you must hide them because you would be criticized and therefore 86 THE INSTINCTS OF SELF-PRESERVATION AND PROCREATION IN CONFLICT
very fact that you are ashamed and therefore hide it produces strain, anxiety, pretense, and fear of 86 THE INSTINCTS OF SELF-PRESERVATION AND PROCREATION IN CONFLICT
as it were, religious precepts behind which you hide and excuse your childish tendencies to refuse to 88 RELIGION: TRUE AND FALSE
a combination of both. In both instances you hide something and ardently try to prove to yourself 88 RELIGION: TRUE AND FALSE
hidden does not exist. In one case you hide the rebellion and hostility; in the other, you 88 RELIGION: TRUE AND FALSE
the rebellion and hostility; in the other, you hide the helplessness and desire for protection, the tendency 88 RELIGION: TRUE AND FALSE
yourself as you still are induces you to hide what you disapprove of and causes you to 90 MORALIZING -- DISPROPORTIONATE REACTIONS -- NEEDS
any imperfection, of any immoral instinct, makes you hide it. You feel, I should not be like 90 MORALIZING -- DISPROPORTIONATE REACTIONS -- NEEDS
do not need to pretend in order to hide them, only then do you grow, only then 97 PERFECTIONISM OBSTRUCTS HAPPINESS -- MANIPULATION OF EMOTIONS
indeed. Fears are so often a subterfuge to hide from the basic core of pain. They come 100 MEETING THE PAIN OF DESTRUCTIVE PATTERNS
out into the world and into relationships and hide instead in your own corner whenever a hand 103 HARM OF TOO MUCH LOVE GIVING -- CONSTRUCTIVE AND DESTRUCTIVE WILL FORCES
teachings or one's own previous genuine experiences. Superimpositions hide the real self. This is obvious. Superimpositions occur 104 INTELLECT AND WILL AS TOOLS OR HINDRANCES OF SELF-REALIZATION
not so bad, and thus can continue to hide from the truth within. This subterfuge is not 106 SADNESS VERSUS DEPRESSION -- RELATIONSHIP
a hopeless depression will be less inclined to hide. Instead, they will go to those who find 108 FUNDAMENTAL GUILT FOR NOT LOVING -- OBLIGATIONS
Self-respect and self-assurance can not exist when you hide from seeing your impaired integrity. When, however, you 109 SPIRITUAL AND EMOTIONAL HEALTH THROUGH RESTITUTION FOR REAL GUILT
mutual growth through it, while the latter may hide his wish to escape under an unhealthy preoccupation 115 PERCEPTION, DETERMINATION, LOVE AS ASPECTS OF CONSCIOUSNESS
the actual self-important and destructive impulses you also hide some of your most creative and inherently constructive 116 REACHING THE SPIRITUAL CENTER-STRUGGLE BETWEEN LOWER SELF AND SUPERIMPOSED CONSCIENCE
accept. The ignorant child, believing it has to hide, reacts very strongly before it is brought out 119 MOVEMENT, CONSCIOUSNESS, EXPERIENCE: PLEASURE, THE ESSENCE OF LIFE
in yourself, which you do not have to hide once you know it. As long as a 136 THE ILLUSORY FEAR OF THE SELF
a truthful phenomenon when there is nothing to hide, when you make the great decision not to 136 THE ILLUSORY FEAR OF THE SELF
self-facing to a degree, you still manage to hide from issues when they become really painful and 143 UNITY AND DUALITY
blamed. In reality, it is your wish to hide yourself from yourself and others that separates you 145 RESPONDING TO THE CALL OF LIFE
by actually experiencing those areas where you still hide yourself. These are precisely the main barriers separating 145 RESPONDING TO THE CALL OF LIFE
try to expound a nihilistic world view, they hide their private fears, disappointments, and suffering, their distrust 147 THE NATURE OF LIFE AND HUMAN NATURE
a different device is invented in order to hide this weakness and dependency which makes you feel 157 INFINITE POSSIBILITIES OF EXPERIENCE HINDERED BY EMOTIONAL DEPENDENCY
yourself is a direct result of having to hide the underlying shameful and threatening forcing-current. It is 157 INFINITE POSSIBILITIES OF EXPERIENCE HINDERED BY EMOTIONAL DEPENDENCY
out of the fog of vagueness, where they hide under the collective label of anxiety. When you 162 THREE LEVELS OF REALITY FOR INNER GUIDANCE
one whose reason and will function sufficiently to hide the inner alienation and who therefore thinks that 165 EVOLUTIONARY PHASES IN RELATIONSHIP BETWEEN REALMS OF FEELINGS, REASON, AND WILL
you do. It will be as unsafe to hide from yourself as it will be to express 166 PERCEIVING, REACTING, EXPRESSING
more insecure and inferior he feels. He must hide his insecurity and sense of inferiority from the 171 SPIRITUAL LAWS
increasingly more disconnected and hopeless. In order to hide from others -- and primarily from yourself -- 176 OVERCOMING NEGATIVITY
you so busily try to conceal. If you hide and your role is that of being persecuted 176 OVERCOMING NEGATIVITY
it could not be different, for you cannot hide the energy of soul currents, you cannot make 176 OVERCOMING NEGATIVITY
worthless, I have no value. But I must hide this fact, so I must pretend that I 177 PLEASURE -- THE FULL PULSATION OF LIFE
than others or only pretend in order to hide your feelings of worthlessness. It is all the 177 PLEASURE -- THE FULL PULSATION OF LIFE
the false shames, prides, vanities that make me hide behind pretenses, and the subtle inner dishonesty in 181 THE MEANING OF THE HUMAN STRUGGLE
to let go of the negativity and you hide this truth from your consciousness. Speculate upon the 181 THE MEANING OF THE HUMAN STRUGGLE
first the negative emotions honestly. You did not hide from them. You did away with your pretenses 187 (THE WAY TO HANDLE) ALTERNATION OF EXPANSIVE AND CONTRACTING STATES
blame and accuse, feel sorry for yourself and hide from life. As you look at those reactions 187 (THE WAY TO HANDLE) ALTERNATION OF EXPANSIVE AND CONTRACTING STATES
destructiveness. The guiltier you feel, the more you hide what makes you feel guilty and the less 188 AFFECTING AND BEING AFFECTED
in turn increases the guilt. The more you hide from yourself, the more you frustrate yourself and 188 AFFECTING AND BEING AFFECTED
you strong and dissolves negative energy. When you hide your evil behind the evil of others, you 188 AFFECTING AND BEING AFFECTED
aggression, becomes possible only when you no longer hide from your own honest insight and from your 188 AFFECTING AND BEING AFFECTED
assume responsibility for it. Yet, the more you hide it, the more you secretly believe that this 188 AFFECTING AND BEING AFFECTED
so that they will no longer have to hide from themselves. To whatever degree you are thus 188 AFFECTING AND BEING AFFECTED
cannot attain proper self-identification. Although your desire to hide the destructive aspects is more destructive than whatever 189 SELF-IDENTIFICATION DETERMINED THROUGH STAGES OF CONSCIOUSNESS
is more destructive than whatever it is you hide, it indicates that you wish to be free 189 SELF-IDENTIFICATION DETERMINED THROUGH STAGES OF CONSCIOUSNESS
be free from destructiveness. Thus the desire to hide destructiveness is a misplaced, misunderstood, and misread message 189 SELF-IDENTIFICATION DETERMINED THROUGH STAGES OF CONSCIOUSNESS
for weeks or for many incarnations. You may hide this terror from yourself or face it. To 189 SELF-IDENTIFICATION DETERMINED THROUGH STAGES OF CONSCIOUSNESS
will come out of it sooner. When you hide it, you have gained nothing, for the terror 189 SELF-IDENTIFICATION DETERMINED THROUGH STAGES OF CONSCIOUSNESS
lower self which the mask is designed to hide. However, by masking any part of yourself, you 193 RÉSUMÉ OF THE BASIC PRINCIPLES OF THE PATHWORK: ITS AIM AND PROCESS
they have not removed the defenses that still hide what they do not wish to acknowledge. The 194 MEDITATION: LAWS AND VARIOUS APPROACHES-SUMMARY (MEDITATION AS POSITIVE LIFE CREATION)
feel guilty, and, certainly, you should no more hide it from yourself than any other reaction. Rather 194 MEDITATION: LAWS AND VARIOUS APPROACHES-SUMMARY (MEDITATION AS POSITIVE LIFE CREATION)
toward the lower self. To the degree you hide from the lower self and are unwilling to 194 MEDITATION: LAWS AND VARIOUS APPROACHES-SUMMARY (MEDITATION AS POSITIVE LIFE CREATION)
the clouds become thinner. To whatever degree you hide behind negation and doubt, which are the strongest 195 IDENTIFICATION WITH THE SPIRITUAL SELF TO OVERCOME NEGATIVE INTENTIONALITY
false guilt and real guilt and one can hide the other. I have spoken of this before 201 DEMAGNETIZING NEGATIVE FORCE FIELDS -- PAIN OF GUILT
The apparent paradox is that the more you hide from the pain of your guilt, the more 201 DEMAGNETIZING NEGATIVE FORCE FIELDS -- PAIN OF GUILT
are closed books only as long as you hide from your own mind. To be able to 202 PSYCHIC INTERACTION OF NEGATIVITY
disorganized, no matter how much you try to hide this fact from your consciousness. You well know 205 ORDER AS A UNIVERSAL PRINCIPLE
this way of manifesting your otherwise laudable desire hide? Or is the desire overtly weak and even 206 DESIRE: CREATIVE OR DESTRUCTIVE
tight this current is. The very tightness may hide an important clue to what you need to 206 DESIRE: CREATIVE OR DESTRUCTIVE
others or using the ugliness of others to hide your own. I suggest that you also help 206 DESIRE: CREATIVE OR DESTRUCTIVE
never exist in a group of people that hide their evil and pretend it does not exist 209 THE ROSCOE LECTURE: INSPIRATION FOR THE PATHWORK CENTER
and all those things that are shadows that hide the sun from you. You are indeed blessed 209 THE ROSCOE LECTURE: INSPIRATION FOR THE PATHWORK CENTER
negative part of yourself. For the more you hide it, the more you lose yourself in it 211 OUTER EVENTS REFLECT SELF-CREATION -- THREE STAGES
those parts of you which you wish to hide. Paradoxical as this may seem at first glance 211 OUTER EVENTS REFLECT SELF-CREATION -- THREE STAGES
painful predicament you put yourself in when you hide that which you are most ashamed and afraid 211 OUTER EVENTS REFLECT SELF-CREATION -- THREE STAGES
This vicious circle makes you more determined to hide and therefore feel more isolated, more negative, and 211 OUTER EVENTS REFLECT SELF-CREATION -- THREE STAGES
much less. You will be less inclined to hide and whitewash and be a-tremble of your own 212 CLAIMING THE TOTAL CAPACITY FOR GREATNESS
other benign. When you stay in fear and hide from the inner evil, you cannot claim your 212 CLAIMING THE TOTAL CAPACITY FOR GREATNESS
these assets in order to manipulate others and hide the domination you wish to exert, you may 213 THE SPIRITUAL AND THE PRACTICAL MEANING OF LET GO, LET GOD
are either doomed or from which you must hide. By admitting the existence of this negative part 213 THE SPIRITUAL AND THE PRACTICAL MEANING OF LET GO, LET GOD
mask self. In this struggle the temptation to hide, as well as the habit of doing so 223 THE ERA OF THE NEW AGE AND NEW CONSCIOUSNESS
maintain this state, the intention to perpetuate and hide these feelings, prevent the flowering of the hearts 229 WOMAN AND MAN IN THE NEW AGE
process. People who cling to nihilistic philosophies invariably hide the process I just described. This kind of 233 THE POWER OF THE WORD
immortality plays a tremendous role here. If you hide your fear of death, your lack of faith 234 PERFECTION, IMMORTALITY, OMNIPOTENCE
the truth of being -- to no longer hide from your truth. This truth can have many 235 THE ANATOMY OF CONTRACTION
is tragic, on the one hand, because to hide from it, to deny it makes it much 240 ASPECTS OF THE ANATOMY OF LOVE: SELF-LOVE, STRUCTURE, FREEDOM
inner turmoil due to your frantic attempt to hide your self-hate from yourself. The more you do 240 ASPECTS OF THE ANATOMY OF LOVE: SELF-LOVE, STRUCTURE, FREEDOM
genuinely possible only when you no longer excuse, hide, deny, rationalize, project, and hate others in order 240 ASPECTS OF THE ANATOMY OF LOVE: SELF-LOVE, STRUCTURE, FREEDOM
remnants of self-hate remain because a stake to hide them still exists. I want to suggest here 240 ASPECTS OF THE ANATOMY OF LOVE: SELF-LOVE, STRUCTURE, FREEDOM
area you react similarly to demonic entities who hide from the light of Christ, which contains all 248 THREE PRINCIPLES OF THE FORCES OF EVIL -- PERSONIFICATION OF EVIL
the real wealth behind the frantic efforts to hide the assumed -- and hence self-created -- poverty 250 INNER AWARENESS OF GRACE -- EXPOSING THE DEFICIT
for it is finally joyfully revealed. Secrets always hide something negative, otherwise they would not be kept 252 PRIVACY AND SECRECY
not be difficult to discern the wish to hide something that is unpalatable to someone. Either you 252 PRIVACY AND SECRECY
secrecy. Merely believing that there is something to hide creates an aura of fog, a darkness that 252 PRIVACY AND SECRECY
mind grows in you which has nothing to hide, for which hiding seems utterly absurd, and being 252 PRIVACY AND SECRECY
and/or inner secrets. Look at what you still hide and you will find the key to where 252 PRIVACY AND SECRECY
when you know that there is nothing to hide, ever. And when you feel there is something 252 PRIVACY AND SECRECY
And when you feel there is something to hide, consider that perhaps what you hide is really 252 PRIVACY AND SECRECY
something to hide, consider that perhaps what you hide is really something damaging to yourself and/or others 252 PRIVACY AND SECRECY
really be convinced that you have nothing to hide. Imagine the feeling of no longer hiding anything 252 PRIVACY AND SECRECY

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